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[May. 18th, 2012|12:48 am] |
I came to this space to rant about how much you upset me.
But I ended up reading through every single old entry and it reminded me of why I love you. And before I can start ranting,
I sorta forgot what I wanted to type when I was logging in. I'm nuts. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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[May. 14th, 2012|10:20 pm] |
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yesterday marks the last game for Slingers in this ABL season, i'm seriously going to miss Sundays like that. it was the awesomest idea that faithful Sunday that I suggested we catch the game, impromptu at its best. yesterdayy, i watched first half of the game by myself since you were running late and boy was the atmosphere different. i didnt have someone to discuss the game with nor have anyone to explain that foul that i didnt catch. it felt a little weird because ive had alot of comments to make about the players but i have to struggle to keep these silly thoughts to myself. it just didnt feel right, not until you were beside me to catch the ending to our fatal loss. HAHA.
i came to realise that as much as i like group outings, my happiest moments are times where we do simple things together. i know it sounds lame but we have the best times ever on our own because we can be silly and no one is around to judge us. i think its the complication of hanging out in a huge group that makes me a little tense at times.
well, it was just a simple Sunday and i had alot of thoughts, all from one Sunday. i am really glad that we really learnt how to talk things out and overcome issues between us. i swear, it is nothing as simple as i thought it would be. i always visualised it to be something that comes naturally, oh how our hearts drive us crazy. it's been a year plus and im really proud of our progress. and by that, i mean how different we have become as individuals other than just being a couple.
remember how i wondered if our better half is making us a better person? today, im proud to say my better half has made me a better person. albeit not the best i can be at the moment, i am really glad we are committed and have reached mutual understanding that its something that we wanna achieve in the near future.
i really like being your best friend, your soulmate and the apple of your eye. :) |
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[May. 10th, 2012|12:26 am] |
Well, I just thought that I should pen this moment down. Although I've been well-taken care of for the past one year plus, it's been awhile since I feel what I'm feeling right now.
Like a princess. That's right, as bimbotic as it sounds, I'm feeling like a total princess.
Thank you, WBBF. Should it be quite hard on you at times, perservere!
To be treated like a king in the future, you'd first need to fulfil the needs of a princess. ;) Till my next happy day. :)
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[May. 2nd, 2012|11:20 pm] |
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when i was alot younger, i was envious whenever i see couples because i was curious to know how does it feel like to be the centre of someone's universe. i imagined it to be magical, something beyond what i can ever describe. now that i am very much in love, i still find it hard to describe how does it feel like to be in love.
not only for the lack of proper vocabulary to express the overwhelming emotions that are brought about by love, it is not exactly something i would like to be bounded by words. i often attempt to pen down my feelings of one particular moment, fearing i might not remember how it feels like again. time and again, i find myself trying feebly to find words to fit that right emotion. usually, words i come up with at such situations are pretty much understatements about how i actually feel.
the thing about love is that it makes me a conflicted and confused person. i find it disturbing that i can feel both cloud nine and utmost sadness within a split second. if i am not in love, i might think that i've been compromised. it is almost ridiculous to find it alright to feel so, all because i am in love.
love brings about alot of complications, at least to me. i felt anxiety that ive never felt before, i was so outraged that i never thought it would be possible to be this angry, i cried so hard that i feel almost blind, i felt so threatened that it makes me feel so small. and after all the crazy episodes, i feel so calm that i can sleep through a storm, i feel so loved that nothing is seems impossible, i feel so safe that i'd just let my guard down. all that ups and downs, within my tiny little frame.
what made me feel so strongly about love was witnessing how happy my colleague looked today. she asked a potential out for lunch and she came back floating, with all smiles. her happiness is contagious. i'd do loads to feel that again. its not like i am not happy now, its just a very different type of happy and somehow i am thankful to the type of happiness i am feeling. at the same time, it intrigues me that i was once that happy but now i find it hard to find to renact it.
love, is way beyond what we can ever describe. nothing ever comes close. |
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[Apr. 15th, 2012|02:54 am] |
i just wanna say,
DATE NIGHT WAS AWESOME.
i am uber happy tonight.
goodnight. :) |
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